Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary
and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD,
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

-Isaiah 40: 28-31

and I hate my hair. My mommy says she wont pay for another trip to the hair salon until winter because I just got it cut.

So, I’m commuting this year because corona isn’t very far from riverside at all.
But, I miss the privacy of being away from home/parents.
it feels good to be home (especially being able to fully occupy 2 rooms…yes, i have two beds and two closets )…but it also feels good to be alone…

You know what you gotta do when life gets you down?
Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming swimming swimming
What do we do we swim, swim, swim
OH HO HO How I love to swim

what is cheating?
is cheating betrayal? what defines betrayal?  Is it defined differently than cheating? What defines cheating?
what is flirting? what defines it?

Seriously, I just came across this one site and am truly amazed at the talent involved.

I’m not a big fan of jewelry. For those of you who don’t know, I hardly wear necklaces. I hardly wear bracelets. I hardly even wear earrings except for studs. I just don’t like the feeling of having something dangling off my neck, wrist, ears, whatever.

But seriously, even I CAN’T RESIST SWAROVSKI CRYSTAL BEADS.

Just  a few months ago, I became interested in swarovski crystal beads. They’re soo beautiful! They shine and sparkle and they come in the cutest shapes ever: hearts, stars, moons, teardrops. And just last week, I bought my first set of swarovski jewelry. It’s a simple necklace. A 14 mm heart pendant strung on an 18 inch sterling silver chain. I also have matching earrings!  Anyways, these babies catch the sun all the time and they’re so pretty!

Check out Lisa’s creations and order them today. I think they’d make the perrrfect present for an anniversary, christmas, birthday, valentines day, anything. Prices are awesome for what it’s worth! Most necklaces are only $25 ish.

I really don’t think your girlfriend, sister or mom would object to receiving one of these: (and hrmm…i don’t know whether or not im hinting at my own boyfriend to get me one…..:D )

MY NEXT ORDER WHEN I GET MY PAYCHECK: KEY TO YOUR HEART NECKLACE IN THE DARK BLUE HEART and earrings! oh, the pink mother of pearl earrings are really nice in real life, too!

http://heheproductions.ecrater.com/
or go to her blog: http://hqcdblog.blogspot.com/

I miss the old times between us,
when things seemed carefree
and the atmosphere wasn’t so tense.
and all we cared about
was making each other happy

I think back on the times
when we flirted and touched,
kissed, laughed and loved
when nothing in the world was  an obstacle
because i had you and you had me

because i had you and you had me
because we had each other,
and that was all it really mattered

our love was selfless
filled with trust for each other, for the future,
sparked by encouragement,
solely aiming at each other’s contentment

now all that’s changed
things are so broken, unmendable it seems.
what is this force tearing us away?
with every frequent fight,
the hurt becomes harder to bear.

we no longer blame ourselves but each other.
our love is no longer selfless, but selfish.
it seems that both of us are at fault
and having each other is no longer enough.

i doubt i make you truly happy
i fear the distance that grows
i weep even when tears are not flowing
i worry about where we stand
i miss the old times, good times.

there’s so much on my mind. where do i even start?

one of these days, ima seriously rip your face off, biiitch.

here’s another instance of me not being able to control my anger.
at least, i haven’t killed anyone yet. you have to give me props for that.

I find myself angry and bitter many times. And when I am, I feel like I can’t control myself and I do things that I don’t intend to do and I hurt others out of anger, revenge and selfishness.

This summer, I’m trying to work on getting rid of hatred in my heart when I am angry. I am trying to work on not letting my angry feelings boil. I want to be in control of my actions, of my words and of my feelings. There are plenty of things for me to change but I feel like my anger is something that needs to be addressed first. I don’t want my angry feelings to hurt God, to hurt Peter and to hurt myself (after i realize how wrong i am…). I know that I can’t change overnight and that I can’t do everything at once. Permanent change comes from gradual yet persistent change.

I think I realized how important it is to control my anger after a sermon that Pastor Mike gave. Often times, I think that there are different levels of sin. I classify sin into bad sin, not so bad sin. But, I fail to realize and to remember that all sin is bad and that all sin is the same. Sin is sin. Feeling angry, acting on revenge, all the forms of malice are no different than murder. I know…shocking, huh? I’m not going to lie…I was appalled when I first learned that feeling angry is just as bad as murder. I mean, those two are totally different things…but unfortunately, they are the same and God sees no difference between murder and anger because afterall, murder is driven by anger. So, I feel terrible because I’ve probably in a sense “murdered” 458659694395829294 people already since I am often, sooo angry at everything and everyone!

But wow, time to change, honeyyy.

On my mirror door of bible verses is something that I need to read every time I am angry and something that i fail to do over and over:
“get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” Ephesians 4:31-32

On a lighter note, my brother Leo got his black belt today! Not even nine years old and a black belt already. Today, I had to bow to master Leo. haha. So cute, annoying, frustrating, but adorable