Fireproof

10/4/08

datee with peter.
went to cue and then ontario mills.
i drove today! yayy i went on freeway. it was scary though especially since this is the first time that i drove freeway so far and in the rain too! but thank you peterrrr for helping me with directions and spending the whole day with me and getting dragged into cue and picking out clothes with me and holding my shopping bags i want to go buy more clothes!

Yesterday (friday), peter and I went to amc to watch fireproof. Fireproof was an awesome movie! I think watching that movie really made me realize how I can’t act on my feelings and how I can’t depend on myself. I think it made me realize alot about a guy’s point of view instead of just what I see all the time. I think both peter and I really needed to watch that movie to realize how we should treat each other and how we can improve to be better for each other. I know there’s alot of things that I need to work on. I really hope that God will work in me and help me be the person that he wants me to be.

I also think that Pastor Mike’s sermon about how you have to treat someone with love by taking the first step and then, that person will respond by love was portrayed throughout the whole movie.

If you guys are in a relationship/hope to be in a relationship/are married/want to be married…basically, EVERYONE should watch the movie. And don’t get turned off by it just because it’s a “christian” movie. It was a great movie, with a great lesson. I liked it just as much as I liked the notebook! Maybe even more

And now I think I am going to order that “love dare” book online. It’s only $8! :DDD
I want to watch fireproof again. I don’t think I’ll ever get sick of watching it.

update

sept 19 was our one year we watched ghost town. and we have a raincheck for claim jumpers. yummy

sept 21 i moved into ucr. i hate school. i hate the food. i miss walnut. i like living with ashley though, its fun.

Gas

When Gas was at $4.60, oil prices were $144
Now, oil is approximately $93.  Why did gas prices only drop $1?
If you do your proportions…

144               93
—–   =     —–
4.60               x

cross multiply…and divide to find x.
x should be 2.97
so gas should be around $3.00. Why is it still $3.60-$3.70?
They say that gas will be $3.00 at the end of this year but what about now?
Someone explain to me. I still think gas should be $3.00 right now.

realizations

I realized how pathetic I am and how angry I am. My blog entries have been nothing but a bunch of complaining and rants.
I realized how selfish I am and how self centered I am and…what a life I don’t have. I actually blog about my anger. Doesn’t blogging about my anger, about myself in general display selfishness?
I realized how much more I want to be a dentist after working as a dental assistant this summer. I don’t want to be on the sidelines watching the doctor extract teeth, doing root canals, drilling while I’m just sucking out saliva. I don’t want to be the employee, listening to doctor’s orders. I want to be the one extracting teeth. i want to be the doctor. (And I really want to feel the power when I hold the needle in my hand)
i realized how much I’m going to miss home when I go off to college. Even though, I’ll be back every week and even though I’m not even gone yet, I feel like crying when I think about leaving home.
I realized that when I was small, I was a lot like my dad and now that I’m older, I’m a lot like my mom. Hot tempered, easily angered but quite smiley 90% of the time, easily worried but careless..and just…when I see my mom happy or mad, it reminds me of myself.
I realized that alot of girls wear bright pink/almost red nail polish and that it doesn’t look as bad as I thought it did before.

I realized how much I want to change how I live my life, how I view life, how I react at life, how I treat life and what I want to do in life.
-I want to watch what I eat, especially at college. I want to limit the amount of juice and soda I drink. I want to excercise.
-I want to smile at life. I still want to smile at life when life throws me a rock.
-I want to be honest in life. I want to be viewed positively by other people.

oh, and I want braces again in my lifetime. Then Ima bleach my teeth super white and make them all pretty:)

Okay, so I know I’m pmsing right now. I’m on my period and I’m being a real pain butttt I swear that this time, I”m not using my pms as an excuse to get mad.  I really do think I have a legit reason at the moment to feel un-okay.

and ugh! I’m so frustrated right now.

today’s our 11 months.
one year since our first date.

i celebrated by going shopping by myself.

the words that people say are full of bull.
sometimes i feel so alone
and now, i think im beginning to realize who i matter to.

my american eagle mass order came in neww clothes yay!
i’m happy. and i love online shopping now(with free shipping) of course.

wow look at my posts. they’re like sad happy sad happy
i have mood swings

oh and my face’s been softer and my tiny black heads are almost non existent with my new st ive’s apricrot scrub try it! ($4 at rite aide) hehe i’m happy. for once im not using bar soap and water by doing my skin a favor!

andd i learned how to take xrays today (its kinda hard though…even with a ring holder)
anddddd i got my teeth checked again cause my mom and i were bored at work (still nada cavities!)

i hate being so emotional. just being within a five mile radius can set me off
i know this is wrong, i know i shouldn’t be like this but im ANGRY!

i miss alot of things.