I am done with my DAT!
Although I didn’t do as well as I had hoped (really wanted 20+), but at least I broke 20? I don’t think I am going to retake (at least not this year). I’m going to just apply and if I don’t get accepted, I will retake next year. But retaking this year will only put me behind in the application and I doubt I will improve by more than 1 point which is kinda useless.
What’s done is done. The only thing I can do now is  keep hoping&praying for an acceptance.
USC and NYU are my top two schools.
Now that I’m done with my DATs, I feel weird. I’m no longer carrying around my flashcards or burying myself in a book. I don’t know what to do with my free time anymore…time for  a new hobby!
But at the same time, I keep worrying about whether or not my score is good enough to get accepted this year. I keep stalking the SDN forums and predents website, looking at everyone’s stats. I don’t think it’s doing me any good staring at everyone’s super high scores. Hopefully the statistics of the people on SDN don’t represent the statistics of the entire application pool or else I will just have to kiss dentistry goodbye forever.

D-Day

Tomorrow, April 25th is my DAT.
Right now, I am freaking out and so I’m blogging to try to calm myself down.
This test feels like the most important test I’ve ever taken-even more important than the SAT.
My scores tomorrow (which come out immediately…seriously, I don’t even get a chance to sit back and breathe) will determine whether or not I will apply to dental school this upcoming cycle.

I know I’ve been studying on and off for awhile but the last three weeks, I put my ALL into it.  And when I mean all, I mean 6-14 hours a day. I’ve put down school work for classes, family, friends. Its even to the point where I dream about ochem reactions and certain bio concepts in my dream.

Right now, I am beyond scared. I feel unprepared even though I should be prepared.
Perhaps its the mock test scores that disappoint/scare me? I didn’t do as well as I wanted but…it’s too late to reschedule my real DAT now.
I feel like if I don’t do well, I’m going to feel real dumb.
I know if I do bad, I’ll be sad.
But I also know if I do bad, it’ll just be a slap in the face to wake up and work harder….after a week of sleep. I am exhausted.
Whether or not I do well, less than 24 hours before I can finally rest.
….Sigh, I just want to do well…so I can finally just put aside my books, clean my room and not worry about ochem reactions, gen chem formulas and bio concepts diffusing out of my brain.

I’m not even aiming for high scores. I just want to break the 20 mark. Be in the 90th percentile..so that I’ll get accepted somewhere.

today marks one year since my car accident.
Strangely, I woke up this morning dreaming about getting into another car accident. Hrm..

After my DAT, I will:
-get a facial. all this stress is making my skin bad. ugh. im never one to get pimples but in the past 3 months, i’ve had pimples pop up ):
-paint. i really want to paint. And to be honest, I want to be like Allie from the notebook. Paint naked on my balcony but I don’t think I will…I’ll paint in my bikini.
-buy that purse. Yeah, I know I already emptied my bank on the LV Trevi pm but whatever, I want that coach-and it isn’t too expensive.
-celebrity stalk. Specifically, I want to see adam levine. I think everything about him from his eyes to his tattoos to his facial hair to his body to his voice screams sexayyyy.
-party. Since I turned 21, I haven’t partied…or even gone to a 21+ club.
-buy those 4 inch heels and wear them out. Who cares if I tower over everyone else? A tall girl with skinny legs rock heels better than a short girl can.
-properly explore LA, beverly hills, santa monica, hollywood. I live so close to everything yet I’ve gone nowhere….
-work out.
-sleep. the most important of them all. burn my notes. sell my books for money. whoo.

ONE MONTH!! I CAN DO THIS!!!!