Okay, so I know I’m pmsing right now. I’m on my period and I’m being a real pain butttt I swear that this time, I”m not using my pms as an excuse to get mad. I really do think I have a legit reason at the moment to feel un-okay.
and ugh! I’m so frustrated right now.
today’s our 11 months.
one year since our first date.
i celebrated by going shopping by myself.
the words that people say are full of bull.
sometimes i feel so alone
and now, i think im beginning to realize who i matter to.
pumo is so cute
when i see him, i go mute.
he loves to eat ranch
when he has chicken for lunch.
he often calls me up
Just to see wassup
sometimes he blushes
cause im better than his other crushes!
his love for filet-o-fish combo
doesnt compare to his love for sumo!
—written by me (sumo 
)
I’m back from retreat. And I think the most important thing I learned was that Christ does not discriminate his love between his enemies and his friends. I knew this before but I don’t think I ever thought it should apply to me.
“Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.” Luke 6:27-28
I’m mad at her.
I’m cold to her.
I hate her.
I say disgusting things about her.
I’m jealous of her.
I’m angry towards her.
I have bad feelings for her.
but..
I know I have no reason to be mad at her.
I have no reason to be cold to her.
I have no reason to hate her and say disgusting things about her.
I have no reason to be jealous of her.
I have no reason to feel anger towards her.
I have no reason to feel anything bad at all.
She doesn’t hate me, she hasn’t cursed me, she hasn’t mistreated me (so i definitely dont have a reason to hate her). I guess I’m pouring out all my feelings on her.
I need to forgive. I need to forget. I need to love. I need to remind myself that it’s okay.
It’s really hard. Because I still think about it. I still get hurt from it. I still want to cry about it.
Forgive&forget. Love&move on.
my american eagle mass order came in neww clothes yay!
i’m happy. and i love online shopping now(with free shipping) of course.
wow look at my posts. they’re like sad happy sad happy
i have mood swings 
oh and my face’s been softer and my tiny black heads are almost non existent with my new st ive’s apricrot scrub try it! ($4 at rite aide) hehe i’m happy. for once im not using bar soap and water by doing my skin a favor!
andd i learned how to take xrays today (its kinda hard though…even with a ring holder)
anddddd i got my teeth checked again cause my mom and i were bored at work (still nada cavities!)
i hate being so emotional. just being within a five mile radius can set me off
i know this is wrong, i know i shouldn’t be like this but im ANGRY!
i miss alot of things.
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