-I am probably the most jealous person you’ll ever know in your life.
-I worry, which causes me to fear, which leads to frustration and unnecessary thoughts which produce negative results
- I have something inside of me. Even the smallest things can cause me to get angry. Then when I’m angry, that something inside of me wakes up and takes over my whole body. Then I don’t think rationally.

And all of you don’t know the extremity of the situations except peter.
So, thank you for putting up with it and trying to help me change for the better.

peter wrote this for nine months

Things about 9 months:
1. Learning how to drive a train = 9 months
2. Birth = around 9 months
3. 273.931649 days = 9 months
4. 9 months the movie came out in 1995
5. babies usually learn how to stand up at 9 months
6. babies ususally say mama and papa at 9 months
7. walden university special program for disabled people usually lasts 9 months.
8.a person ususally breaths from 27900 to 55800 times in 9 months
9. and last it takes 9 months for peter to say happy 9 months and do something fantastic and not be like… this sucks -_- XD a;lsdf;alskfj;alsdjfa;sldfkja;ldfkjasdfla;dsfkjas;dfkja;sdlfkjasdf lol

=)

Lots of the things that i’m gonna do today is gonna revolve around 9

this is now the 9 reasons I like susan lu=)

1. because whenever she sees me she smiles REALLY BIG
2. because she eats my food even though sometimes i don’t like what i cook, and she is happy with the food she eats and goes this is REALLY GOOD=)
3. because whenever i do anything wrong she’s still able to forgive me and ends up making the day a lot better.
4. because she sings really well even though she sings really soft
5. because she talks a lot  =P and is able to get a conversation stable
6. because she likes to do a lot of things i like to do
7. because she’s really smart O_O (side note it is now 4:44 as i am writing this)
8. because she’s on my side most of the time and backs me up and pushes me forward even when i can’t push myself
9. because she’s not lazy…. most of the time =P

but wait!!!!! doesn’t this seem really lame and stupid, i mean only 9 reasons why i like the love of my life…. nooo this can’t be
that’s why we at corporation peter loves susan we’re adding 8!!!! more REASONS why peter likes susan =) because susan’s favorite number is 8! so on this extraordinary day june 19th 2008 we are offering 17 reasons for the price of 9! at the low cost of going out on a date with peter chien. I think it’s worth it, the whole corporation peter loves susan thinks it’s worth it, and we LIKE IT!

so let’s get on with the show the next 8 reasons

1. she always wants my attention
2. she always gives me attention
3. she has been with me for 9 months even though we had many problems
4. she is really understanding of my faults
5. she makes a mean alfredo chicken dumpling
6. she swims really well
7. she knows how to have a lot of fun
8. she makes my parents happy =)

what did you say? 17 is just not enough for you!? what? you want an aunchor? okay… here we go we’re gonna give you 7!!!! more reasons why peter chien loves susan, butttt these are suppose to be very deep, and if this doesn’t please you…. then i have failed here as the administrator of corporation peter loves susan and i will give up on life. BUT WAIT i’m not done yet, i’m still gonna give you these brilliant reasons for why peter chien loves susan. So hold onto your horses, and hold your checks read this before you ask for your refund because it ain’t over till the fat lady sings…. or in the case, when the skinny lady squeals. (audience laughs)

1. even though i don’t have anything fantastic about me she cares about me and likes me and loves me, even though i’m not super funny she still laughs even though i’m not really good looking she thinks i’m great looking even though i’m not that smart she thinks i’m a genius even though i can’t sing she thinks i’m very harmonic and calming even though the food i make isn’t that great she thinks it’s a chief’s recipe.
2. even though we fought so many times and there are many times she could have left me she’s still here and she’s closer to me then ever instead of moving farther away
3. She can turn any situation into something that makes me happy, she makes everything seem really fantastic, and beautiful
4. she can look at anything and see the good parts and be really positive for me, even though i’m so negative she makes everything + =)
5. she likes all the little things i do i don’t have to do something big for her to see it, she enjoys it all big or small and makes it big inside her heart.
6. she’s got eyes on me, not eyes on 2 places or 3 places but eyes on me, even though she could go after other people instead of me she’s right here with eyes on me, and she wants my eyes on her.
7. i love her cause she loves me =)

hope you enjoyed this sumo, i have another surprise for you when you come to my house. =) haha this was kinda stupid wasn’t it? i tried to make it funny but i failed misersably but yea=) hope you enjoy our 9 months.

and then he gave me another letter and we went to banana bay for dinner
<3333

so far my summer has consisted of:
-new haircut: it’s super short. it doesn’t even reach my shoulders. It’s light and I like it though I think I’ll never ever cut it this short again.

-paid internship at my mom’s dental office. I’m a DA Dental Assistant.
I think in the past week, I’ve learned alot. I’ve helped her with extractions, root canals, fillings (amalgam and composite), cleaning (regular prophylaxis and SRP), crown preps, delivering crowns and even sat through a couple of whining babies. It’s tiring. But I like needles and blood. I also like my uniform-makes me feel important

I know I haven’t blogged since forever.
So many things happened in the past few months.
Prom, last choir concert and last day of school was just the past friday.

prom!
thank you peter chien for a wonderful, unforgettable night
you were an awesome date. I couldn’t have asked for more or for better!
speaking of this boy right here, we just celebrated our 8 months a couple weeks ago!
so that means we’re going on 9! yayyyy.
he’s wonderful.

choir! I’m going to miss it!
After four years, I’ve grown quite an attachment.
Though I always complained about rehearsals and officer meetings and having to stay after school/go home late, I’m going to miss choir so much.

grad:

my tallsomes that i will miss dearly but will definitely see frequently in the years to come

yay
I’m so stupid, I left my camera in my car for graduation. So I don’t have much pictures.

And Thank you Louis for the thoughtful visit and present

I had a dream that I failed french and didn’t go on to college.
Shoot, I hope that doesn’t really happen.

myheartmyheartmyheartmyheart can’t breathe.
Usually, I’d be angry..
but today, I think I’m just very sad.

i hate maplestory, too.

goodbye hopes and dreams.
when one thing goes down, so does everything else.
wordpress is useless in expressing full emotions

remember the girl i talked about last time, who wouldn’t back away from peter?

well today was diamond bar’s birthday carnival and peter was there early. So was she.
so peter told me what she did:

her: is susan here? *looks around*
peter: no, not yet. she’s coming later.
her: okay *puts arm on him*
thats wonderful.
the girlfriend isnt there, open opportunity for her -__-

FUCKING SHITHEAD.
okay, i admit, i’m a very jealous girlfriend/person in general. but i think, any normal girlfriend would be pissed off and would be about ready to feed her to the whales.

(i was going to put her name here…
to hell with it, i don’t even know why i’m not)

i’m so angry.
i’m so mad.
I can’t even talk right.
i’m so hurt&frustrated&sad&disappointed

God, help me.